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Out of My Mind

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Alan Arkin, one of the most beloved and accomplished actors of our time, reveals a side of himself not often shown on stage or screen.

Like many teenagers, 16-year-old Alan Arkin had it all figured out. Then came young adulthood, and with it a wave of doubt so strong it caused him to question everything he thought he knew about himself and the world. Ever skeptical and full of questions, Arkin embarked on a spiritual journey to find something—anything—to believe in. An existential crisis in his 30s led him to the study of Eastern philosophy. Soon he began opening himself to the possibility that there was more to life than what he had simply seen, heard, or been taught.

In this Audible Original "mini-memoir," the 84-year-old actor shares his powerful spiritual experiences, from his brush with reincarnation to the benefits of meditation. In a gruff, earthy voice that sounds more suited to a New York cabbie than a spiritual guide, he shows us that wisdom can come from the most unexpected places and teachers. Out of My Mind is a candid, relatable, and delightfully irreverent take on how one man went searching for meaning and ended up discovering himself.

3 pages, Audible Audio

First published December 6, 2018

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Alan Arkin

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Alan Arkin was an American actor, director, author, and screenwriter.
In a career spanning seven decades, he received numerous accolades, including an Academy Award, a BAFTA Award, a Golden Globe Award, and a Tony Award as well as nominations for six Emmy Awards.

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Profile Image for Maria.
92 reviews4 followers
December 15, 2018
I enjoyed this. The reviews I read below seemed misguided. This is man in his 70s or 80s reflecting on his inner experiences, there is something to be learned when older people speak.
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1,883 reviews1,797 followers
January 24, 2019
OUT OF MY MIND by Alan Arkin was a free Audible Original, so I figured why not?

I like autobiographies on audio, especially those of comedians. I've always admired Arkin so I thought I would give this a shot. I knew going in that this was about Arkin's spiritual/philosophical journey through life and not really a memoir or autobiography.

I enjoyed his voice and I found what he had to say somewhat enjoyable and helpful.

Thanks Audible for the free audio.

*Listened to on 1.24.19. I'm not entering dates read so this doesn't count towards my reading goals.*
Profile Image for Mahlon.
315 reviews174 followers
December 12, 2018
Too much self-analysis for me. I like and respect Alan Arkin, but I wasn't expecting to go to therapy with him!
Profile Image for Joshua Rigsby.
200 reviews61 followers
December 17, 2018
This pile of malarkey is aptly named, if nothing else.

For some reason, actors believe that average Americans want to hear their undigested self-referential beliefs, no matter how poorly founded they are. In fairness, I listened to the audio book of my own volition, so half of the blame is on me. But still. What a wagonload of incense-scented bullshit.

This was like an episode of Touched by An Angel that was rejected for being too implausible for a gullible daytime TV audience. Incredulous story, after easily debunked mythology, after urban myth cloaked in legitimacy by celebrity anecdote.

In an age when science and reality are under daily assault by powerful ignorami, children are dying of vaccine-preventable measles, and seawater has risen above our ankles, we do not need to entertain this neo-pseudo-religious-Hollywood-mystical charlatanism any more.

This is not just a case of having your "touchy feelies" lubed up with snake oil. It encourages the kind of rejection of reason that keeps us from thinking, voting, or living in a remotely intelligent way.

This isn’t just a waste of time; it’s dangerous.
Profile Image for Grant.
161 reviews6 followers
December 14, 2018
I'm not sure what the point of this book was. It's a narrowly focused memoir about Mr. Arkin's spiritual quest... but it's not particularly spiritual. It's just a long series of anecdotes about things he has felt and experienced that seem extraordinary to him. I repeat: these events seem extraordinary to him.

If there is one thing that all these experiences have in common, it's that he chooses again and again to describe them with the disclaimer, "I don't know how or why, but..."

So we are told right up front that there will be no great truth revealed. No profound life lessons that he derives from his experiences.

The experiences themselves? I'll recount just a few:

--He once played 45 minutes of flawless tennis.
--He twice healed his son by laying his hands on him. Once for a fever and once for a sunburn.
--An untrained surgeon in a remote part of Brazil has extraordinary success resecting tumors with an non-sanitized pocket knife.

To his credit, he admits that in the miraculous tennis session, he made a slight change to his tactics. He also admits that it's possible his opponent was having an off day.

And the healing? He admits that he tried the same trick on other ill people without success. But thank goodness he stepped up for his son. Otherwise, the poor lad might be feverish and sunburned to this day!

But the experience he spends the most time on is the healer from Brazil, a story that has all the hallmarks of an urban legend. By far the most interesting part of this story is that when he and his wife/writing partner attempt to write the screenplay, he goes temporarily blind at the end of each writing session, and she ends each day to discover that the ends of her hair singed.

I guess the most extraordinary, astonishing thing about this book is that Audible chose to produce and promote it, but for the life of me, I can't explain how or why.
Profile Image for Susan Kennedy.
272 reviews9 followers
January 15, 2019
No, I didn't really like this at all. It was really hard to listen to. It was a lot of, I don't even know what to say, mess? Nothing flowed really well and it was just a droning monologue of a whole lot of nothing. It was about Alan Arkin's search for something spiritual, maybe? I'm not even sure. It was a difficult couple of hours to get through and it felt more like half a day, but I did manage to get through it and I'm just left with not much of anything. To me, it was just really boring.

Definitely not one for me.
Profile Image for M. .
163 reviews56 followers
December 17, 2018
Alan Arkin provides a narrative as an author, actor, father, husband and a man who's insights about meditation reveals his lifetime of spirituality.

He reveals how he circumnavigated his life of many miracles he has witnessed and discovered.

Many readers will broaden their knowledge of life to feel comfortable to think for themselves beyond societal expectations.

Personal beliefs are often in conflict with what is expected while learning and discovering a world filled with many opportunities of simple ways to live a life spiritually on ones on terms.
Profile Image for Andy Klein.
1,150 reviews9 followers
December 27, 2018
Total and complete crap. He totally lost me with his belief of some mystical Brazilian who cured people of cancer by doing surgery with a rusty pocket knife while in a trance. Seriously. HE. BELIEVES. THAT. next up is the Easter bunny. Good thing this drivel was free on Audible.
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2,158 reviews60 followers
December 21, 2018
I really enjoyed the stories that he told about different acting experiences as they felt personal, and a touch voyeuristic. I also felt that he was open with himself, talking about his mother, his stage fright and his conversations with a survivor of Hitler's death camps. However, a good chunk of the book is about his personal religious convictions and what he terms consciousness. I have learned that I really do not enjoy books that delve deeply into religion. It always feels preachy to me and I hate it. Proselytizing isn't something I do, and isn't something I enjoy in my literature. Often it feels like the person is lecturing and judging. Sometimes this book felt like that. For me religion is very personal. Luckily it was both very short and free.
Profile Image for David Wineberg.
Author 2 books851 followers
July 1, 2023
Alan Arkin is a different kind of actor. He has a stage presence so strong he often appears to be a total mismatch with the rest of the cast, observing more than participating. So with his short book Out Of My Mind.

In the book, Arkin relates a bunch of stories of inexplicable events. There is a sudden memory of himself approaching a scaffold in revolutionary France. There are hot flashes and blinding lights, crippling fear and sudden cures. His normally totally concrete-reality mother suddenly revealed his dead father appeared before her shortly after his death. And she never spoke of it again. Mostly, the stories seem to reflect his study of East Asian religions, with their extensions into reincarnation and life forces. They have cured of him of going to a therapist.

These kinds of events and stories are often told, and usually have no explanation. In this case, Arkin wants there to be no explanation. He says as a young man his was adamant that what he believed should be imposed on the whole world, even as his views changed. Today, he insists he has no such belief system or ideology. He takes it as it comes, meditates a lot, and attempts to be at peace. He says he tried to write down all the things that he was absolutely sure of and could only come up with two for all eternity: Everything changes, and there is no such thing as too much garlic. If that helps.

The Alan Arkin we see on TV, films and plays is like that – slightly removed from the vortex, and observing it as an education. Usually with pained incomprehension. That he is actually like that in person is a revelation to me. I first saw him in a TV drama/special called The Lovesong of Barney Kempinsky. It aired just once, in 1963, and I have not only not forgotten it, it has made me want to see everything he showed up in ever since. I have not been disappointed.

This little (100 page) book of semi-memoirs on the unexplainable is a finetuned insight into the man. It will not likely change the reader’s outlook on life, but it explains quite a bit of his.

David Wineberg
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Author 3 books19 followers
December 15, 2018
I very much enjoyed Alan Arkin’s open, honest and revelatory sharing about the unfolding of his consciousness, highlighting some key moments in his inner journey. There is much wisdom to be found here.

Alan’s stories about the indelible impacts—of the Holocaust survivor, Esther Raab who never lost faith, the remarkable Brazilian “surgeon,” who removed tumors with a pen knife and no blood, the Guru who taught him meditation, and others—are rendered relatively succinctly as he manages to mine for and reveal the treasure in each of those encounters. His telling builds to a crescendo—a quiet serene one—when at the end he shares about living in the present without plans and ambitions and about his “I” briefly dissolving.

I read some reviews here on Goodreads that dismiss what is contained and communicated here. Alan’s age, informed by decades of meditation practice, and yes therapy as well, have given him perspective and insight that does not conform with popular, conventional messages about striving, identity and what success in life means. This is precisely the value here: to listen deeply and respectfully as he harvests what he does.

For one who is still living immersed in the illusions of which Alan speaks and to which he was bound as well—it is quite understandable that they would devalue the wisdom gleaned in Alan’s journey and shared here.

True wisdom can sound so simple, even simplistic, especially when one has not yet seen through the illusions. Alan has. He shares wisely,
generously—and with humility—about that transformation.
Profile Image for Penny.
390 reviews
December 28, 2018
(Audible)

I really like Alan Arkin. I like his voice, his speech cadence and the quiet intensity that he commits to his roles.

I'm not really sure what I was expecting. What Arkin gave me was a surprise.

The book is a series of unrelated chapters that together build an experienced based belief system for Arkin. He stresses that each of us through our own experiences create, mold, massage, reinvent and revise our belief systems as we go through life. We are impacted by what happens to us, the work we do in therapy, reading, spiritual quests, tragedies and successes.

There's a universal human condition to want to know why we're here. What's the purpose of our life?

Where Arkin loses me a bit is when he relays his experiences of past life found memories and psychic surgery. I realize he believes in these. And he tells us about his own skepticism and why he believes in them. If i'd had his experiences, perhaps I'd be as committed. But my experiences and context make me more skeptical. Perhaps I haven't had enough experiences?

Some interesting stuff here. Some thoughtful stuff. And a little off the deep end stuff. But a worthwhile read.

RECOMMEND
Profile Image for Blythe.
474 reviews1 follower
January 4, 2019
I’ve read a lot of criticism about this book that it isn’t the memoir readers expected. I fully understand that; however, Arkin accomplishes what he sets out to do: write a memoir of his spiritual/philosophical journey throughout his 80+ years. He is open minded, intelligent, and humble. I appreciate his hunger and perseverance in seeking purpose in life. And I’m in awe of his ability to process and articulate his journey. I found this short memoir intriguing and interesting.
Profile Image for Gil Bradshaw.
410 reviews3 followers
December 18, 2018
This book is him discussing his spiritual journey in a way that is very brave. He started out as an atheist and then documents his journey to becoming convinced of a higher power and then finally his attempts to harness that power in his daily life.

I think his open discussion is brave and honest. He doesn’t try to explain his miracles or try to convince you that they happened. He doesn’t know why or what these experiences mean himself and I think that he made himself very vulnerable.

People have experiences like this but nobody wants to talk about them like Mr. Arkin does here. Good for him.

I think some of these things may have been coincidence but so does Mr. Arkin. I love reading about people who make healthy efforts to tap into God’s power. It’s important.
335 reviews2 followers
September 7, 2019
I enjoyed many of his stories even though I did not agree with his general philosophy. He had some thought provoking ideas.
Profile Image for Alan (The Lone Librarian Rides Again) Teder.
2,530 reviews206 followers
December 18, 2018
Bits Cut from An Improvised Life?
Review of the Audible Audio edition

I haven't actually read Alan Arkin's biography "An Improvised Life," but I assume that it primarily covers his stage and film acting career.

This compendium of spiritual or therapy related anecdotes seems like it might be collecting chapters that were deleted from that biography as being of little interest to fans of the actor.

I'll admit that I became skeptical of the book as soon as Arkin began recounting the career of Zé Arigó, a Brazilian psychic surgeon (see also Arigo: Surgeon of the Rusty Knife) which was a failed film project of his.
Profile Image for Amy.
795 reviews9 followers
December 16, 2018
A free audiobook from Audible. The telling of his unusual experiences might bump into your pre-conceived notions about life.
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Author 1 book37 followers
July 15, 2019
This was another free Original from Audible. It wasn't bad - I did finish it, but there were times I found it a little repetitious and/or a little too hard to relate with to truly enjoy it. It was interesting, however, to hear about Arkin's personal spiritual journey through the span of his lifetime in his own voice.
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38 reviews6 followers
August 23, 2020
In the course of a long flight, I have been reading for over five hours now and I wanted something else to occupy my time so that I don’t fall asleep. My intention was to avoid a jet lag at all costs. Then, I happened upon this book coincidentally when I was browsing through audiobooks that the flight offered. The duration of the audiobook coincided with the time remaining before the flight landed, so I thought, “Why not?”.

Alan Arkin, is a well-known figure in the movie industry with a colorful career spanning seven decades. The fact is, I only found that out afterwards when I did a little digging to quench my curiosity. At the time of reading this book, I had no idea who the guy was or what he did for a living except from writing this book. What I mean to say is, I went in with a fresh perspective, a clean slate, without biased.
In my humble opinion, the book is by no means a must-read. The book is sprinkled with Alan’s thought bubbles about religion, spirituality and his way of life. It is structured in short anecdotes about various spiritual mentors he had, otherworldly events within his own life, and bizarre stories that he has come across in his lifetime. The book had a “Tuesdays With Morrie” type of structure in my view, because I perceived it as an old man musing about his past events, and their significance to the clarity of his mind in the present. While I may have made comparisons to these two books, this book lacks the integrity and heart of the lessons taught in “Tuesdays With Morrie”. If you believe in supernatural occurrences in life, reincarnation or epiphanies, I think you should give this book a try. If not, don’t bother, the guy will bore you starting chapter 2.
Profile Image for Patricia.
1,854 reviews
December 28, 2018
Some of the stories in this memoir were fascinating, but I don't want to be a critic of someone's spiritual journey.
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1,097 reviews29 followers
December 28, 2018
I love Alan Arkin but this was sooooooo boring. Thank God it was short or I would’ve quit.
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262 reviews3 followers
December 10, 2018
A little confusing but intriguing to go into the mind of Mr Arkin
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31 reviews9 followers
December 9, 2018
The narration is great however the story has holes. I don't think Alan is sceptical enough. He is a believer, even though he says he is not.
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262 reviews8 followers
December 12, 2022
Let me start by telling what this book is not. It is not a book about mental illness or about dementia or being out of your mind in any sense. It's also not a comprehensive biography or memoir of Alan Arkin.

What it is is a loosely connected retelling of some of Arkin's spiritual experiences and anecdotes connected to them. This book came perilously close to receiving a 2* review. Much of it is devoted to the slippery world of Psychic surgery and you get the feeling the primary purpose of the book was promoting it. Disreputable people performing mock surgery on people, convincing them that a piece of chicken guts is in fact a tumor they pulled out of them and that they are healed. The book's saving grace is Alan Arkin's genuine manner of telling his experience and also the fact that it is so very short.
Profile Image for Renee.
338 reviews
December 30, 2018
This is a review of the audio edition read by the author: I enjoyed this autobiography for the simple reason that it takes courage to expose the intimate details of your life and here he lays his heart out about subjects no one can explain and require faith in purpose to process. Most people can’t even open their minds to the possibility that there is more to this life than what we see. He briefly addresses this in the beginning of his story using his own mother as an example. Despite such family influence he goes on further with his work to explore mystical subjects that piqued his curiosity. If I have a complaint at all about this book it is its brevity. I have more questions and want more details to which I am not entitled, it’s his story. It’s a framework of his self exploration... not instructive but informative; not a prescription but a light in the dark; not a roadmap but a mirror to make us look at our own lives for comparison. We all have moments of illumination, clarity and mystery. This is his story. Be respectful.
Profile Image for Simon.
962 reviews11 followers
December 11, 2018
Very disappointing. I thought he would talk about how to meditate, but he just spoke about weird experiences.
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